essence of life: July 2009

NBL player come to our school!!

erm...yesterday..a NBL(National Basketball League) player come to our school to hav a training camp..the training camp is original for basketball assaciation d..but..soo chorng ask me go..I pun soi soi d go to school..haiz..when i reached there..all the people there was all basketball team d player..im the only non-basketball assaciation d member..(arggg!!!stupid chorng)..but..throughout the whole training camp..I learned many things also la...A guy named Kenny came to the training camp..he is from NBL d..he is SO TALL!!6ft9..!!!!i was only 6ft!!!he can slam dunk easily..(wished i could do that..xP)...Jason also requested 1 on 1 with Kenny...haha..quite good match...

Me,chorng and Kenny(how tall is him!!)

Why everyday seemed so boring?

Sometimes it's just because of the self-confidence/esteem that I don't feel like putting energy into replies and conversation. Other times, I just don't know what it is. Is it me?

You'd think after all the self-help books, all the antidepressants, something would be clicking by now.

Here's just an example. There's MANY I can draw from.just now , my mom just told me that one of my mom's friends daughter just got engaged to a guy she knew for 2 months. I've met the girl numerous times, but she's only 17. I had like 2 sentences to reply to what she said, clearly wanting to make a little conversation with me. I basically just paraphrased what she said, that's it. Like my reply was alright, but it was like a robot was saying it. Extrapolate this example to dates, my friends, etc and you get the picture. I hate it.

I mean, when I look in the mirror I like what I see physically. Yet, it seems inside I'm still just half-awake these days. I've been trying (not to a great success you might argue) to beat through it... going to school... doing some hw... trying to stay positive, but the routine is boring. It gets pretty damn frustrating, I know I seem to whine a lot on this board. Probably because it'd drive my friends nuts, lol. It's just so hard to be happy/believe in yourself when inside it's like "why bother talking? why bother doing this activity"?

I conclude I am useless.

Studying + friends gathering

jervis,dannis,rayne

erm...yesterday we had a little study party at 慈济书轩..it was near jeti..around the bank area...Me,jervis,dannis and rayne had go there..we chat and study there like about 4 or 5 hours then go back d..all have own things to do...BORING day..at the same day..actually planned to go out with friends around 7p.m..but I FORGOTTEN I HAVE TUITION!!CANT PONTENG...that SUCKS..bad mood till now

pictures at 书轩

jervis

dannis

rayne

Johor trip~ and FIRST in malaysia!!

haiz...so fast..2 days of johor trip has ended le..so miss it..i think that was the last trip with HEHS choir d(if at the year end no go out).anyway..we did a very splendid job in penang PESTA choir competition and so in pertandingan koir sekolah menengah peringkat kebangsaan..i was so happy that we had made it!!we are the topest choir in MALAYSIA(secondary school).we practiced so hard..we hav happy things going on..we hav people who cried for this competition..we hav also 2 good teachers bringing along us..Koay Lay Beng teacher(teacher who incharge of HEHS choir) and Lee Xiao Yun teacher(HEHS school choir teacher)..haiz...YAY..On la...malaysia top 1 choir..gogogo!!

going to johor on bus